I came here and started writing a completely different post…and then had a small panic attack about what I was writing. It was going to be about finally feeling “free,” on a number of fronts. Those of you who are sports fans might understand why I couldn’t write the post. When any of my favorite sports teams play in a big game (GO PATS!), there are certain things I can and cannot do on game day…certain hats I won’t wear, certain bets I won’t make, certain parts of the game I might refuse to watch, certain status updates I won’t post on Facebook until the game is really over (most of the time, I’m only human, after all), as though things that I do or say could control the outcome of the game (they can, I just know it!). Somewhere in my brain, I guess I understand that nothing I do or say could possibly affect the outcome, but I guarantee you this–you won’t see me in any Pats gear this weekend, and it’s in large part because of me that the Bruins won the Stanley Cup.
Most of my rituals on game day involve outwardly pretending that I don’t care about the outcome of the game, and trying not to say or do anything that could be considered “cocky” and jinx my team. And so today, all I can say is that I don’t care at all that my pathology came back and all the nodes tested are confirmed negative for cancer. I don’t care that it’s Stage 1, or that they found another 4mm nodule that was too small to show up on my MRI yet, vindicating my decision to do bilateral mastectomy instead of the recommended lumpectomy. And I definitely don’t care at all, and would never say out loud, that I am, at least for today, cancer free. BIG DEAL.
And I will tell you that I went to both doctors’ offices today and had 2 of 4 drains and my lidocaine ball removed (yay!) and am much more comfortable than I was yesterday. And I’ll tell you that I’m feeling a little bit better every day and regaining my physical strength. And I’ll tell you that when I came home from the doctors’ appointments, it was an impossibly tough call whether to eat first, or take my first real shower in 9 days, but I won’t tell you which way that call went. And if my brother would just go on his work trip to Israel instead of staying here to help out if we need him, which coincidentally also gives him the opportunity to watch the AFC Championship game, then the Patriots might just have a chance. But I doubt it. And I don’t really care anyway, right?
Awesome news! Congratulations. And what the heck did you do to the Bruins tonight?
Brilliantly written! So so thrilled for your amazing news. And if I’m a betting man, I’m gonna say chocolate cake trumped showering first. Xoxo
i’m about to cry with joy!!!! lisa this is fantastic, the best ever- so so thankful! and i TOTALLY get the not wanting to jinx anything- i live a minor but daily bit of it with Zoe. Thanks for posting-!!!
xo
so very very very glad to read this on every front except your unfortunate affiliation with the pats. HUGS
Great to read and hear. I didn’t think that anyone could get me to root for the Pats, but if I keep reading you I’m starting to think that might change.
At least, for one week.
I mean, you are playing the Ravens.
Thank you for the update. Prayers continue for you each day.
that is the BEST NEWS EVER!!!! hooray!
Go Pats-Go Lisa Love, M.
What great news! I’ve had my fingers crossed for days! They are a bit cramped but now i can undo them!
I’m still getting over the fact that you were out of the hospital in 24 hours. Thanks for keeping us all posted on your great progress. Not much of a sports fan myself but love getting on a good band wagon especially since I leave near Foxboro so, go team go and remind Heather to send you the inappropriate questions I have for you when you are up to answering stupid questions. Beth
I’m always up for inappropriate questions. Tell her to send them my way!
And I won’t say “Yay!” and smile a really big smile for you! Xoxo
Fine, I’m going to Israel!
LIVE YOU THE MOST! This reminds me of a great How I Met Your Mother episode…called “A Perfect Week!” – Do you watch that show? This episode is done like a sportscast with some sportscaster (you know I don’t know who the heck it is) and it’s all about not jinxing it! I’m gonna get it for you!
AWESOME NEWS!!!! YAY! The whole not showering and tubes from your body — gone through that, too, and it’s just gross. So glad you’re feeling better. Oh, and go Pats. But no jinxing it.
xxoo Melissa
Amazing, happy, joyful news that I won’t jinx by crowing too much. So wonderful that the world (including selfish me) gets more of marvelous *Lisa* to enjoy, for many, many, many more years to come. Crying with happiness, and hoping each day gets better and better. We love you!
Pam
I guess I won’t tell you how happy I am to hear your news. I was going to say congratulations….but I won’t……!!!!
No brainer, you ate before you showered. You obviously have been recently, up until last night, rooting for the Celtics. Glad you came to your senses and stopped. Julie and I enjoyed going in to see them win last night – and while sitting in the Garden I asked if she had any update from you. Steve can go to Isreal AFTER Sunday, and Jean can get some sleep. All five of us think this is no big deal as you said, and can’t wait for the day when you are recovered enough to get 5 big hugs! – S,J,C,W &J
Dude, I feel you. I’m super glad to know that you had a shower though. I was starting to worry. xoxo
Your news gives me chills and makes me tear up w/ joy for you and your loved ones.Holding my breath for you…keep us posted!
What exciting news Lisa!!! I hope you are feeling much better!!!
Great news Lisa!! (We were away so I’m just getting up to speed on my favorite blog!) I’m so thrilled and relieved for you!
I am so glad to hear your wonderful news. And that the outcome of Sundays game was so fantastic as well. I will be all about rituals come February 5th. In 2008 we were in Tampa at a Super Bowl party full of anti-Pats fans. No more away parties for us!